inside my heart.

ye, aku sedar aku ni emo~ kekadang tu ter-overreacted.

Dan boleh menyebabkan kesan khas *atau special effect* kepada orang-orang rapat sekeliling aku..

Kadang-kadang aku tak boleh nak kawal emosi.. dan nak menghamburkan kemarahan dan kebencian dalam diri ni kepada orang lain.. bagaikan lava gunung Vesuvius menghancurkan Pompeii..

aku sedar sikap ni susah nak ubah.. and u r welcome to stay away, jauhi or even neglect me as one of ur friend..

For these two people, I am sorry, I cant help it.

U know what to do, stay away from me.

I am no good. Don’t make me the bad guy in the storyline..

one cause betrayal *is it the right one?* perhaps jealousy cause the anger and hatred..

you should avoiding me as a friend, so u can freely do what u want. And I have no right to stop it after that.

and the other one doesn’t even understand. make me look bad when I can’t help at this moment. I always try to help. On what occasions I never fulfill your needy? maybe one or two times, even more.  u need to realize i cant always be around you and to help you.  yeah, maybe taking me for a granted as a friend for all this period?or maybe u really need my help, but I can’t be there. I am really sorry.

Yesterday, I really doesn’t want to meet people. I feel bad, sick, emo and got a lot of works to do, which I need most. But when I can’t help you, you begin invi me first. Fine then, when I invi u, then u start the ‘menyampah’ status. So what? u started it all.

I tried to be mature by say word first to you but ur arrogant make me sick. When my heart is already hurt, u add more wound inside it.

i need you to be more understand. I thought you understand since u r the one that I tell my problems and I believe your maturity and calmness could balance or stabilize my maturity and temper. Like yin and yang. But I am wrong. Can’ trust even one friend these days.

My heart is bleeding. Hate it.

Just settle all the debt and we both finish and end it in peace in different ways. Fair and square.

As a ‘friend’, I will never ever tell to anybody secret between both of us. I will uphold and honor that as a Muslim till I die. So find a better friend.

I am no good person…